The Terror of Being Found Is Invitation
The afternoon light is unforgiving. It exposes the dust on the shelves and the cracks in the paint.
It is the hour when the mask feels heaviest, when you dread the simple question—'How are you?'—because the answer might reveal that you are a fraud. You spend your energy holding up the performance, terrified that if you stop, everyone will see the emptiness inside.
But the light does not need your performance. It was there before you learned to pretend.
It does not vanish when the act drops. There is light within a person of light, and it lights up the whole world.
If it does not shine, it is dark. The darkness is not your failure; it is just the place where you are hiding the very thing that saves you.
You came from the light, the place where the light came into being on its own accord. You do not have to earn your way back to your origin.
You only have to stop pretending you are somewhere else. The terror of being found out is actually the invitation to be found.
Drawing from
Gospel of Thomas, Gospel of Thomas
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