the guilt of smiling when no one is watching

The Light Needs No Audience

The afternoon light is flat and honest, exposing the mask you wore all morning. You feel a strange guilt for the moment your face relaxed, for the smile that slipped out when no one was watching.

As if joy requires an audience to be legitimate. As if the light inside you needs permission to shine.

But there is light within a person of light, and it lights up the whole world even when the room is empty. You came from the light, the place where it generates itself, not from the approval of the crowd.

The smile was not a performance; it was the truth breaking through the fatigue. The light does not wait for witnesses to be real.

Drawing from

Gospel of Thomas, Gospel of Thomas

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