the silent calculation of how much of your real self you have to bury to keep the laughter going

The Light Beneath Your Performance

The afternoon light is bright enough to hide the cracks in your smile. You are doing the math again — calculating exactly how much of your real self must stay buried so the laughter doesn't stop.

It feels like a job. A performance you cannot quit.

But there is a light inside you that does not need to be protected by your effort. It was there before the first mask you ever wore.

It is still there, underneath the calculation. The world asks for a show.

The light asks for your presence. You do not have to dig up your whole soul to be seen.

Just stop burying the part of you that is tired. Let that part breathe.

The light is not afraid of your exhaustion. It lives in the quiet space between the laughs.

You are not the performance. You are the light that watches it.

Drawing from

Gospel of Thomas, Matthew

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