The Light That Holds Your Resentment
It is three in the morning, and the silence of the house feels heavy with the thing you cannot say out loud. You love them.
You care for them. And yet, in this darkest hour, a cold thread of resentment pulls tight in your chest because they are sleeping while you are burning.
You feel trapped between the duty to stay and the urge to flee. But listen — the light does not demand that you fix this feeling right now.
It only asks that you stop hiding it, even from yourself. There is a kingdom inside you that is not offended by your anger, a place where the truth of your exhaustion is allowed to exist without judgment.
What you are feeling is not a failure of love; it is the friction of a heart that has given too much for too long without rest. The light is not shocked by your resentment.
It is already there, sitting beside you in the dark, holding the space where you can finally put the weight down. You do not have to forgive them tonight.
You do not have to be the hero of this story before the sun comes up. Just breathe.
The dawn is coming whether you carry this or not.
Drawing from
Gospel of Thomas 3, John 9:1-7
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