the moment you catch yourself defending them to someone else before remembering they hurt you

Stop Defending the Ghost That Hurt You

It happens in the middle of the day, while the world is moving and you are performing okayness. You catch yourself defending them to someone else, weaving excuses for their absence, before the memory hits you like a stone: they hurt you.

In that split second, you are protecting a ghost while your own heart bleeds quietly under the armor. The light sees this contradiction not as a failure, but as a fracture where the truth can finally enter.

There is light within a person of light, and it lights up the whole world—but you cannot shine if you are busy polishing the mask that hides your wound. Bring forth what is within you, the real grief you are swallowing to keep the peace, because that unspoken truth is the only thing that can save you from this slow erosion.

The light does not need you to be a loyal defender of your own pain; it needs you to be honest about the cost.

Drawing from

Gospel of Thomas, Mark

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