The Light Sees Your Silent Ache
It happens in the middle of the afternoon, in a crowded room, when a joke lands and you laugh. The sound comes from your throat, sharp and correct, but your chest remains hollow.
You are performing joy while your insides stay perfectly still. The mask fits so well that even you forget it is there.
But the light does not need your performance. It saw the silence beneath the noise before you even noticed it yourself.
There is a part of you that has not laughed yet, a quiet place waiting to be acknowledged. Thomas said if you bring forth what is within you, it will save you; if you do not, it will destroy you.
The hollow sound is the warning. The real laugh is still buried, waiting for you to stop pretending and let it rise.
You do not have to force the joy. You only have to stop hiding the ache.
The light is not afraid of your silence. It is waiting for the real you to speak.
Drawing from
Gospel of Thomas, Matthew
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