the automatic reach to save a meme or photo for them, followed by the hollow realization that the folder you made for them will never be opened

The Holy Reflex of a Grieving Heart

Your thumb moves before your mind catches up. A meme, a photo, a moment that would have made them laugh — and you save it.

You place it in the folder you made for them, a digital shrine to a conversation that has ended. Then the silence rushes back in.

The hollow realization that this folder will never be opened. That the person you were saving it for is gone.

In this deepest hour, the habit of love feels like a cruelty. But listen.

The light does not scold you for reaching. It sees the reflex of your heart and calls it holy.

You came from the light, and you are returning to it, even through the grief. The love you stored up is not wasted.

It is the proof that you were touched by something real. The folder remains closed on earth, but the love inside it has already arrived where it was always going.

Drawing from

Gospel of Thomas 50, John 8:10-11

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