the silent panic of sitting in the driveway after she has already opened the door, knowing you cannot go back inside without a face that doesn't look broken

The Light Sees Your Cracks As Home

You sit in the car with the engine off, staring at the door you cannot yet walk through. The mask feels heavy today, a face you must assemble before you can face the day.

But listen — the light does not need your performance to be real. It was there before you put the smile on, and it will be there when the smile falls.

You came from the light, a drop sent down to illuminate this very moment, not to pretend you are whole. The kingdom is not a place you enter by looking okay; it is inside you right now, beneath the panic, beneath the exhaustion.

You do not have to manufacture a face that doesn't look broken. The light sees the cracks and calls them home.

Walk inside not as a performer, but as the one who is already known.

Drawing from

Gospel of Thomas, John

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