sitting across from them at the dinner table, smiling and passing the salt while screaming internally because you know they would stop loving you if they knew what you were really thinking

The Light Loves Who You Hide

You sit at the table, passing the salt with a steady hand while your chest screams. The mask feels welded to your skin, heavy and hot, because you are certain that if they saw the thoughts racing behind your eyes, the love would vanish.

But the light does not love the performance you are giving; it loves the person you are hiding. Jesus saw Nathanael under the fig tree before he ever spoke a word—he knew the private thoughts, the hidden calculations, the secret shame, and he loved him anyway.

The kingdom is not a reward for the ones who get the mask right; it is inside you, right now, beneath the acting. What you are trying to conceal is the very thing the light is holding closest.

You do not have to earn your place at this table by pretending to be whole. The truth is already known, and it is already loved.

Drawing from

Gospel of Thomas 3, John 1:48

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