lying perfectly still in bed so your partner doesn't hear you crying and have to ask what's wrong

Let the tear fall, the light is not afraid

You are holding your breath so the person beside you won't wake up. You have become a statue in the dark, terrified that a single sob will break the silence and force you to explain what cannot be explained.

But the light does not need your performance of peace. It sees you even when you are perfectly still.

It knows the weight you are carrying is too heavy to hold alone. You do not have to protect your partner from your pain, and you certainly do not have to protect the light from it.

The truth you are hiding in the dark is the very thing that needs to come out. If you bring forth what is within you, what you bring forth will save you.

If you do not, the silence will destroy you. Let the tear fall.

Let the breath shake. The light is not afraid of your noise.

Drawing from

Gospel of Thomas, John

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