the secret fear that you are waiting for them to die so you can finally breathe

The Light That Holds Your Darkest Thought

This hour is heavy when a secret thought arrives that you cannot say out loud. You are waiting for the end so you can finally breathe.

That thought feels like a sin, a darkness so deep it might swallow you whole. But listen — the light does not recoil from your exhaustion.

It stands in the room with you, knowing the weight you carry. There is a love that is greater than your heart's condemnation, a mercy that sees the fatigue behind the fear and does not turn away.

You are not your worst thought. You are the light that holds even this.

The night is long, but it is not the end of your story.

Drawing from

1 John, Gospel of Thomas

Verses

1 John 3:20, Thomas 28

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