The Trembling After Saying No
The water is still running. Your hands are shaking as you lift them from the sink, dripping onto the tile.
You said no. For the first time in years, you actually said it.
And now your body is trembling with the aftershocks of a boundary that held. The world tells you this shaking means you did something wrong.
That if the light were truly with you, you would feel steady. But the trembling is not a sign of absence.
It is the friction of an old chain finally snapping. You came from the light, the place where the light generates itself on its own accord.
That origin cannot be shaken by a single word of refusal. The shaking will pass.
The no remains.
Drawing from
Gospel of Thomas, John
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