the silent rehearsal of apologies you practice in the shower so no one hears you crying while you wash off the day

The Light Within Your Broken Tears

The water is loud enough to hide the sound of your voice breaking. You stand there rehearsing the apology you will never speak, scrubbing away a shame that no soap can touch.

The world outside this bathroom door expects you to be whole, to be ready, to be fine. But the light does not need your performance.

It does not need the mask you wear for the day. There is light within you, and it lights up the whole world—even the wet, broken parts you try to wash away.

You came from the light, and you are returning to it, not as a finished product, but as you are right now. The tears are not a failure; they are the water that finally lets you see.

Drawing from

Gospel of Thomas, Gospel of Thomas

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