the exhaustion of rehearsing every sentence before speaking to ensure no one suspects the chaos inside

Light That Loves Your Chaos

The sun is up, and with it comes the heavy work of becoming someone else. You have already rehearsed every sentence you will say today, testing each one for cracks that might reveal the chaos inside.

You are exhausted from holding the mask in place, from smiling when your soul is screaming, from performing okayness while you break. But notice how the morning light does not ask the flowers to prove they are worthy before it touches them.

It simply arrives. It spills over the walls and into the room without demanding a performance first.

The light sees behind the mask you worked so hard to build, and it does not turn away. It knows the chaos.

It knows the fear. And it loves what is hiding there.

You do not have to get the words perfect today. The light is already speaking through your silence.

Drawing from

Matthew, Gospel of Thomas

Verses

Matthew 6:22

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