the panic of hearing your own voice say 'i'm fine' while your hands shake so hard you have to hide them in your pockets

The Dawn Loves the Trembling Hands

The sun is just beginning to touch the horizon, painting the sky in colors that don't ask for your permission to exist. You said you were fine, and your hands betrayed you—shaking so hard you had to hide them in your pockets, as if the tremor was a secret too heavy to carry into the light.

But the morning does not demand that your hands be still before it loves you. It simply arrives.

There is a truth inside you that has been waiting to be brought forth, and Thomas says it plainly: what you bring forth will save you, but what you keep buried will destroy you. The shaking is not a failure; it is the friction of the mask cracking, the signal that the lie of 'I'm fine' can no longer hold the weight of the light trying to get out.

You do not have to steady your hands to be held. The dawn is here, not for the composed, but for the trembling who are finally ready to stop hiding.

Drawing from

Gospel of Thomas, Matthew

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