rehearsing the apology you're terrified they'll never ask for

The Embrace Before The Confession

The sun is dipping below the line, and the day's armor is finally heavy enough to set down. You are sitting in the quiet, rehearsing the words you hope they will say—the apology that never comes.

You play the conversation over and over, waiting for a mercy that feels stuck in someone else's hands. But listen—the light does not wait for their permission to reach you.

There was a father who saw his son coming home from a long way off. He ran.

Before the apology, before the speech, before the shame could even form a sentence—he ran. The embrace came first.

The feast was prepared before the confession was finished. You are holding your breath for a door that has already been opened.

The light is not standing outside waiting for you to be worthy; it is already inside, making a home in the very place you feel most unworthy. You do not need their words to be whole.

You are already held.

Drawing from

Luke, John

Verses

Luke 15:20, John 14:23

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