The Light Does Not Condemn Your Hope
The sun has gone down, and the armor you wore all day finally hits the floor. Now the silence rushes in to fill the space, and you find yourself rehearsing the exact sentence you will say if they ever call back.
You play the scene over and over, perfecting the tone, the words, the way you will sound when you finally speak. And then, immediately, you hate yourself for hoping they will call at all.
That hope feels like a betrayal of your own healing. But listen — the light does not condemn you for the rehearsal.
It sits with you in the quiet while your heart argues with itself. The truth is not that you need to say the perfect thing.
The truth is that you are already whole, whether the phone rings or stays silent forever. You do not need their voice to remember who you are.
The light inside you is speaking your name right now, and it needs no response.
Drawing from
1 John, Gospel of Thomas
Verses
1 John 4:18
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