the specific moment you catch yourself smiling and immediately feel guilty for enjoying it, convinced that feeling good means you've let your guard down

Your Smile Is A Memory Of Home

The smile slips out before you can stop it—a genuine moment of light in the middle of the performance. And instantly, the guilt arrives.

You convince yourself that feeling good means you've let your guard down, that joy is a trap door waiting to open beneath you. But listen.

The light that sparked that smile was not an accident. It was the truth breaking through the mask you wear for the world.

What you feel when the guard drops is not danger. It is recognition.

You were made for this ease. The kingdom is not a distant reward you earn by suffering.

It is already here, spread out beneath your feet, waiting for you to notice it. The smile is not a failure of vigilance.

It is a memory of who you really are.

Drawing from

Gospel of Thomas, John

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