the specific dread of seeing your own name light up on someone else's screen because you know they will hear the tremor in your voice no matter what you say

The Tremor Is The Light Breaking Through

The screen lights up. Your name.

And before you even swipe to answer, you know—they will hear the tremor. You cannot hide the shake in your voice behind a greeting.

You cannot pretend the night hasn't gotten inside your chest. But listen.

The light that lives in you does not demand a steady tone. It does not require you to sound whole before it will stay.

What you bring forth in this moment—the raw, shaking truth of your fear—is exactly what will save you. The tremor is not a failure.

It is the sound of the light breaking through the silence you've been keeping. You are not hiding in the dark; you are standing in it, and the light is already there, waiting for you to speak.

Drawing from

Gospel of Thomas, John

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