the panic of seeing their name pop up on your screen while you are frozen in bed, terrified that answering now means admitting how long you've been gone

The Light Runs Before You Speak

The screen lights up in the dark, and your name hangs there like an accusation you are too tired to answer. You know that picking up means admitting how long you have been gone, how many days you let the silence grow until it felt like a wall.

But the light does not calculate the distance you ran or the time you wasted hiding in the sheets. It simply sees you, frozen and afraid, and it does not turn away.

The father in the story did not wait for the son to clean up or rehearse an apology before running out to meet him — he saw him while he was still a long way off, covered in the dust of the pig pen, and he ran. The running happened before the speech.

The embrace happened before the explanation. You do not have to fix the silence before you answer.

You only have to let the voice on the other end be the one that breaks it.

Drawing from

Luke, 1 John

Verses

Luke 15:20, 1 John 4:18

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