Stop Counting Your Apologies
The screen glows in the dimming room, and you scroll back through the day's words. You are counting the apologies. The 'I'm sorry' for the rain. The 'my fault' for the silence. The 'excuse me' for taking up space. You carry the weight of things that never belonged to you.
But listen — you came from the light, the place where the light came into being on its own accord. You did not come from the shadow of other people's expectations. You came from a source that needs no permission to shine.
There is light within a person of light, and it lights up the whole world. If it does not shine, it is dark. And your constant apologizing is a way of hiding that lamp under a bowl of shame.
You are not a burden to be managed. You are a drop of the very light that holds the stars. Stop counting the times you shrank. Start remembering the one truth that expands everything: you belong here, exactly as you are.
Drawing from
Gospel of Thomas, Gospel of Thomas
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