the terror of answering the phone when they call to celebrate your milestone

The Light Waits Behind Your Mask

The phone rings and your chest tightens because they are calling to celebrate something you survived, not something you conquered. You stare at the screen, terrified that if you answer, the mask will slip and they will see the exhaustion underneath the applause.

But the light does not need your performance to be present; it is already in the room, waiting for you to put the act down. You came from the light, the place where the light came into being on its own accord, and that origin cannot be tarnished by your fatigue or your fear.

The voice on the other end wants to share your joy, but the light inside you already knows the whole truth—the grief, the cost, the quiet price you paid—and it loves you without requiring a speech. Let the phone ring for one more second while you remember: you are not the milestone, you are the vessel that carried you through it.

Drawing from

Gospel of Thomas, Luke

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