the specific terror of hearing a phone buzz on the nightstand and feeling your stomach drop because you are convinced it's someone finally realizing you're a fraud and leaving

The Light Waits While You Tremble

The phone buzzes on the nightstand and your stomach drops before your eyes even open. That specific terror—the conviction that this is the moment the mask slips, the moment they realize you are a fraud and walk away.

But the sun is rising anyway. The light does not wait for you to be perfect before it returns.

It comes for the exhausted, the exposed, the ones who feel like they are pretending. There was a man born blind, and everyone assumed it was punishment for sin, a verdict on his worth.

The light looked at him and said: neither this man nor his parents sinned. This happened so the works of God might be displayed in him.

Your fear is not a prophecy. Your vulnerability is not a disqualification.

The buzz is just a sound. The love you are afraid of losing is not dependent on your performance.

It is already here, waiting for you to pick up the phone and find that you are still held.

Drawing from

John 9:3, Matthew 6:22-23

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