the specific terror of your phone buzzing on the nightstand and the split-second calculation of whether you have enough energy to perform 'okay' if you answer it

The Light Needs No Performance

The phone buzzes on the nightstand, and for a split second, your stomach drops. You calculate the cost of answering — the mask you must pull on, the voice you must manufacture, the performance of being 'okay' when you are barely holding on.

But before you reach for it, remember this: there is light within a person of light, and it lights up the whole world. You do not need to manufacture that light.

You do not need to perform it for the caller on the other end. It is already there, humming beneath the exhaustion, waiting for you to stop trying to create it.

The kingdom is inside of you, and it is outside of you — it is not in the persona you project, but in the quiet truth you carry. You can answer the phone as you are, because the light does not require your perfection to shine through the cracks.

Drawing from

Gospel of Thomas 24, Gospel of Thomas 3

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