the phantom vibration of your phone on the nightstand, convincing you a message has arrived to forgive you, only to find the screen dark and silent

The Light Was Never in the Glass

The phone buzzes against the wood, a phantom vibration that convinces you forgiveness has finally arrived. You reach out in the dark, heart hammering, only to find the screen cold and silent.

The darkness feels heavy enough to crush you when the message isn't there. But the light was never inside the glass.

It was never a notification waiting to download. You came from the light, the place where it generates itself, and that origin cannot be silenced by a dead battery.

The forgiveness you are waiting for is not a text message from the outside. It is the luminous thought hidden deep within your own chest, waking you up to ask: who is calling your name?

You are not waiting for permission to be loved. You are the place where the light has already made its home.

Drawing from

Gospel of Thomas 50, Apocryphon of John 20:14-19

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