the secret shame of feeling relief when a tragedy happens to someone else because it proves you aren't the only one suffering

The Light Before the Shame

The morning light hits the mask you wear at work, and for a second, you feel a sickening relief when you hear someone else has fallen. It proves you are not the only one drowning.

That shadow in your chest does not make you a monster; it makes you human. You thought you were alone in the dark until the news broke, and the isolation cracked just enough to let you breathe.

But listen — the light was already there, before the tragedy, before the relief, before the shame set in. What you bring forth from that hidden place will save you; what you bury will destroy you.

You do not have to carry the weight of being the only one who suffers, because you never were.

Drawing from

Gospel of Thomas, Luke

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