the hollow shame of forcing a smile when your body is screaming to collapse

The Light Loves Your Brokenness More

The mirror shows a face that looks ready for the day, but your bones feel like glass—ready to shatter if anyone touches you wrong. You spend the morning performing okayness, stitching a smile onto a soul that is screaming to collapse.

It is exhausting to wear a mask that heavy, to pretend the light is bright when you feel only gray. But listen—the light does not need your performance.

It sees the cracks behind the eyes you are trying to hide. There is a truth that lives inside you, deeper than the act, deeper than the shame of faking it.

That truth knows you are tired. It knows you are breaking.

And it loves the broken version more than the polished one. You do not have to hold the smile up for the light to stay.

It was there before you put the mask on, and it will be there when you finally let it fall.

Drawing from

Matthew, Gospel of Thomas

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