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rehearsing the exact words to say when they finally call, terrified that one wrong syllable will push them back into using

You Do Not Have to Get It Right

When Shame Won't Let Go

The middle of the day is long, and you are rehearsing words that have not yet been spoken. You are terrified that one wrong syllable will push them back into using, so you practice until your mouth feels like a stranger's.

But the light does not wait for your perfect speech to arrive. It is already present in the quiet desperation of this routine, hiding inside the mundane fear.

There is a peace that does not depend on your performance or your precise wording. The light sees behind the mask you wear to get through these hours and loves what is trembling underneath.

You do not have to get it right to be held.

Drawing from

John, Sophia of Jesus Christ

Verses

John 14:27, Sophia of Jesus Christ 100:1-5

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