The Light Sees the Actor Beneath
The laughter escapes your lips, bright and convincing, and for a split second, you hear it echo back as a lie. You are performing joy so well that the room believes you, even while you feel the rot spreading quietly underneath the costume.
The mask fits so perfectly now that you forget you are wearing it, until the silence between jokes reminds you who is actually hiding there. But the light does not need your performance to find you—it sees the actor and the ache beneath the makeup with the same tenderness.
There is a place inside you that has never laughed to hide the pain, a quiet room where the joy is not a disguise but your actual face. You do not have to take the mask off all at once; just know that the light is already sitting with the part of you that is tired of pretending.
Drawing from
Gospel of Thomas, Matthew
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