replaying the exact moment you laughed too loud at a joke you didn't understand, convinced everyone saw through you

The Light Was Here First

The laugh still hangs in the air of this quiet room, replaying on a loop while the rest of the world sleeps. You are convinced they saw it—that sudden, too-loud noise that gave you away as the fraud you feel like inside.

But in this deepest hour, the light does not care about your performance. It cares only about your presence.

There is a truth living inside you that was there before the joke, before the laugh, before the shame. It cannot be broken by a moment of awkwardness.

You came from the light, the place where it generates itself, and that is your origin—not the mistake you are replaying. The darkness of this room cannot hide what is already shining within you.

The night is long, but the light was here first.

Drawing from

Gospel of Thomas, Matthew

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