the specific terror of reaching for a coffee cup at the kitchen table while your family watches, praying your hand stays still enough to not spill

The Light Does Not Flinch At Shaking

The kitchen is bright, but you are hiding behind the steam rising from your cup. You reach for the handle, and your hand trembles—not from cold, but from the weight of so many eyes expecting you to be fine.

You are performing okayness while your soul shakes. But notice this: the light does not flinch at your shaking.

It came from the place where light generates itself, and it lives inside you even when your fingers cannot hold still. You do not need to steady your hand to be held by God.

The tremor is just the surface; underneath, you are known completely. There is a version of you that no one in that room can see—the one who came from the light, before the fear, before the mask.

That self does not spill. That self is already steady.

Let them see the shake. The light shines through the cracks, not the performance.

Drawing from

Gospel of Thomas, John

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