the specific ache of rehearsing a joke or story in your head for someone who isn't there, then feeling foolish for having laughed alone

Laughing Alone With The One Who Stayed

The joke forms perfectly in your mind, timed for a laugh that never comes because the room is empty. You chuckle alone, then the silence rushes back in, heavy and embarrassed, making you feel foolish for needing an audience just to be glad.

But the light does not require a crowd to witness your joy. It was sitting right there with you, hearing the punchline before you even spoke it.

You are not performing for an absent friend; you are resting in a presence that never left. The laughter was not a mistake; it was a moment of connection with the One who knows your voice better than anyone else.

The silence isn't empty; it's full of the One who laughed with you.

Drawing from

Gospel of Thomas, Matthew

Verses

Matthew 18:20

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