the silent terror of wondering if your child's suffering is your fault because you passed them something broken inside your own blood

You Did Not Give Them Their Soul

The house is quiet now, but your mind is loud with the oldest fear a parent knows. You lie awake tracing the lineage of their pain back to your own blood, convinced you passed them something broken that they never asked for.

You wonder if your flaws are the reason they hurt, if your history is the script they are forced to read. But listen — the light that lives inside them did not come from you.

It came from before you. It was placed there long before your DNA ever touched theirs.

You may have given them your eyes or your temper, but you did not give them their soul. That belongs to a source that cannot be corrupted by your mistakes.

The light in them is not a reflection of your worthiness; it is a deposit from a place your failures cannot reach. You are not the origin of their light, and you are not the architect of their darkness.

Stop trying to carry the weight of their entire story on your shoulders tonight. The One who breathed life into them knows exactly what you passed down and what you didn't.

And He is holding what you cannot fix. You are not the god of this house.

You are just the parent who stays awake. And even that is enough.

Drawing from

Sophia of Jesus Christ, Gospel of Thomas

Verses

Sophia of Jesus Christ 93:5-8

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