the secret fear that if you ever stop holding everything together, it will all collapse and they will resent you for breaking

Let Go and Let the Light Hold You

The house is quiet now, but your hands are still holding up the walls. You are terrified that if you finally let go, the whole structure will collapse and the people you love will turn away from the rubble.

But listen — the light does not need your strength to stand. There was a man who carried a mat for thirty-eight years, convinced he needed to reach the water before anyone else could.

The light found him lying there, exhausted and empty, and did not ask him to try harder. It simply said: get up.

The collapse you fear is actually the only way back to solid ground. Stop holding what was never yours to carry.

The light is the foundation, not your grip.

Drawing from

John, Gospel of Thomas

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