rehearsing the apology you will never say because you're afraid your voice will crack and prove you're still the child they hated

You Are Already Home

The house is quiet, but your mind is loud with a speech you will never deliver. You rehearse the apology, terrified that if you finally speak, your voice will crack and prove you are still that child they hated.

But the light does not need a steady voice to hear you. It does not require you to be smooth, composed, or forgiven before you arrive.

There is light within a person of light, and it lights up the whole world—even the parts you keep hidden in shame. You came from the light, and to it you will return, regardless of how your voice trembles tonight.

The apology was never the price of admission. You are already home.

Drawing from

Gospel of Thomas, Gospel of Thomas

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