the shame of feeling relieved that the disaster happened somewhere else, not here

Your Safety Is Not A Sin

The house is quiet, and the silence feels like a crime. You are safe tonight, and that safety tastes like ash in your mouth because you know others are not.

It is a strange, heavy mercy to breathe easy when the world is holding its breath. But listen — the light does not scold you for surviving.

It does not demand that you bleed just to prove you care. There was a man who stood far off, watching a city burn, and he wept not because he was untouched, but because he could finally see the truth of it without the dust in his own eyes.

Your relief is not a failure of love. It is the space the light needs to enter.

The light shines in the darkness, and the darkness has not overcome it. You are allowed to rest in this hour.

The guilt says you should be suffering too. The truth says you are being held so you can be ready.

The shame you feel is just the shadow of a love that is larger than your capacity to carry it tonight. Let it go.

The light is not disappointed in your relief. It is using your safety as a lantern for the ones who are lost.

Drawing from

Luke, John, Gospel of Thomas

Verses

John 1:4-5

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