You Are the Light, Not the Fire
The house is finally quiet, and the silence feels less like peace and more like a mirror you cannot turn away from. Everyone praised your strength today, but now the applause has faded, leaving you with a hollow ache because you don't know who you are without the crisis that defined you.
You have become so good at carrying the weight that the weight feels like your only identity. But there is light within you that existed before the first trouble started, and it will remain after the last one ends.
Split a piece of wood, and the light is there; lift up a stone, and you will find it waiting in the ordinary dust. You came from the light, not from the storm, and your origin is a place where the light generates itself without needing your pain to fuel it.
If you bring forth what is within you—the person beneath the performance—it will save you from the slow destruction of pretending. The crisis was never your root; it was just the soil you grew through for a season.
You are not the fire that burned you; you are the light that watched it burn and remained unbroken.
Drawing from
Gospel of Thomas, Gospel of Thomas
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