staring at the bathroom door handle, terrified that the sound of your own voice cracking while you speak will confirm everything you're trying to hide

The Crack Where Light Gets In

The handle is cold. Your hand is shaking.

You are terrified that if you turn it, the first sound out of your mouth will crack and give you away. That the fracture in your voice will confirm everything you have been trying to hide in this room.

But listen — the darkness does not hate your brokenness. It is simply the place where the pretending stops.

There is a light that does not need you to be steady. It shone in the dark before you ever learned to speak, and it will shine after your voice fails.

You do not have to hold yourself together for the morning to come. The crack is not the end of you.

It is the place where the light gets in.

Drawing from

John, Gospel of Thomas

Verses

John 1:4-5

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