The Light Waits Where You Kneel
The front door clicks shut and the performance ends. For twelve hours, you held the shape of someone who had it together, smiling while your insides fractured.
Now your knees hit the floor because the mask was heavier than the truth. You are exhausted from pretending to be a vessel that isn't leaking.
But listen — the light does not demand you stand back up right now. It saw the smile, and it sees the collapse.
Thomas says if you bring forth what is within you, it will save you; if you bury it, it will destroy you. The thing you are hiding — the grief, the fatigue, the raw honesty — is the very thing that must be released to keep you alive.
You do not have to sweep the house or light a lamp to be found. The light is already here, in the dust where you are kneeling, waiting for you to stop performing and start breathing.
The collapse is not your failure; it is the moment the real you finally comes up for air.
Drawing from
Gospel of Thomas 70, Matthew 26:38-39
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