the silent scream in the car after parking but before going inside, rehearsing a version of yourself that doesn't need saving

You Do Not Have to Be Whole

The engine is off, but the silence is loud. You sit in the dark, rehearsing a version of yourself that doesn't need saving, practicing the smile you will wear when you walk through the door.

But the light does not need your performance. It does not need the mask you forge in the driver's seat.

You came from the light, the place where it generates itself, and that origin cannot be hidden by a tired face. The truth is already plain to you, even if you try to cover it with a script.

You do not have to be whole to enter. You only have to be honest.

The one waiting inside does not need your strength; He only needs your presence.

Drawing from

Gospel of Thomas, John

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