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sitting in the parked car in the driveway after work, staring at the steering wheel, terrified to walk through the front door and pretend you are okay

You Do Not Have to Be Whole

When You Don't Know Who You Are

The engine is off, but the noise in your head is still running. You sit in the driveway, hand on the wheel, terrified to turn the handle and walk into the house where you will have to pretend you are okay.

The mask feels heavy today. It feels like it might crack before you even reach the porch.

But listen — the light does not need your performance. It does not need you to be strong the moment you step inside.

There is a truth that lives in you, deeper than the exhaustion, deeper than the act you put on for your family. You do not have to manufacture peace before you open the door.

The light is already there, waiting in the hallway, ready to hold the part of you that is falling apart. You are not required to be whole to be loved.

You are only required to be present.

Drawing from

2 John, Gospel of Thomas

Verses

2 John 1:3

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