the quiet panic that your grief is fading because you laughed today

Laughter Does Not Erase Love

The day is ending, and the silence of the room feels like a verdict. You laughed today—a real laugh, maybe over something small—and now a quiet panic has taken root.

You wonder if the laughter means you are forgetting. If the grief is fading, did the love fade with it?

But listen closely. The light does not measure your loyalty by the weight you carry.

It is not watching to see if you stay broken enough to prove you cared. There is a truth inside you that knows better than this fear.

The kingdom is within you, not in your sorrow. When you bring forth the joy that rose up today, it does not destroy the memory; it saves you from the lie that pain is the only offering left.

You are allowed to exhale. The love remains, whether you are weeping or whether you are finally, gently, smiling.

Drawing from

Gospel of Thomas 70, Gospel of Thomas 3

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