replaying a conversation in your head where you finally said exactly what you meant, knowing you never will in real life

The Light Refusing To Stay Buried

The day is ending, and the armor you wore to survive it is finally heavy enough to put down. Now the silence arrives, and with it, the replay.

You speak the words you never said—the truth that stuck in your throat while you smiled and nodded instead. You hear your own voice, clear and unafraid, saying exactly what you meant.

And then the silence rushes back in, louder than before. That rehearsal is not a punishment.

It is the light within you refusing to stay buried. Thomas said if you bring forth what is inside you, it will save you; if you do not, it will destroy you.

The ache you feel is the friction of truth pressing against the walls of your caution. You did not fail tonight.

You practiced. The light is gathering the words you couldn't speak and holding them safe for the moment your courage catches up to your clarity.

Drawing from

Gospel of Thomas, Mark

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