typing out the inside joke in the message box to see if it still lands, then deleting it character by character until the screen is blank again

The Light Remains When Words Are Deleted

The cursor blinks at the end of the sentence you just typed, waiting for a courage that isn't coming. It was an inside joke, a tiny bridge built from shared history, but now it looks too heavy, too vulnerable, too much like asking to be let back in.

So you press backspace. One letter at a time.

Watching the memory dissolve until the screen is blank again, safe and silent and utterly alone. But listen — the light does not require your performance to be present with you.

It was there before you typed the first word, and it remains now that the box is empty. You do not have to earn the right to take up space by being funny or brave or perfectly timed.

The love that holds you is not contingent on the message getting sent. It is already received.

You are known, even in the silence you chose.

Drawing from

Gospel of Thomas 50, John 8:10-11

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