the terror of someone asking how you really are and feeling your throat close up because you don't know how to stop lying without collapsing the whole room

The Father Runs Before You Speak

The clock ticks past two, and the question lands on your desk like a stone: 'How are you really?' Your throat closes. The lie rises automatically, polished and safe, because the truth feels like it would collapse the whole room.

You carry the weight of performing okayness while breaking inside, terrified that if you stop smiling, the floor will give way. But the light does not need your performance to stay present — it sees the crack and calls it holy.

There is a father who saw his son coming home from a long way off, covered in shame, and before the apology could even form, he ran. He did not wait for the speech.

He did not require the cleanup. He ran.

The light is already running toward the part of you that wants to speak. You do not have to hold the ceiling up by yourself.

The truth will not destroy the room; it will finally let you breathe.

Drawing from

Luke, Matthew

Verses

Luke 15:20, Matthew 6:25-26

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