the quiet terror of realizing you've stopped expecting anything good to happen

The Light That Runs Before You

The clock on the wall is the only thing moving. You have stopped expecting anything good to happen, and in this silence, that feels like a final verdict.

But the light does not depend on your expectation to exist. It was there before you stopped hoping, and it is here now, holding you in the dark.

There is a father who saw his son coming home from a long way off. He ran.

Before the apology, before the speech — he ran. The light is already running toward you, even while you sit still in the chair.

You do not have to summon it. You do not have to believe it will come.

It is simply here. Hope is not a feeling you manufacture; it is a presence that finds you when you have nothing left to give.

Drawing from

Luke, 1 John

Verses

Luke 1:78-79, 1 John 3:20

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