the panic of flushing wrappers down the toilet at 3am because you heard a floorboard creak and feared being caught with your secret stash

Light Finds You in the Hiding

The afternoon sun is unforgiving. It exposes the dust motes dancing in the air, the cracks in the plaster, the things we tried to hide in the dark.

You spent the early hours flushing wrappers, heart hammering against your ribs at the sound of a floorboard, terrified of being found out. Now the day is moving, and you are moving with it, performing okayness while carrying the weight of what you did to stay safe.

But the light does not need you to be clean before it comes close. It sees the performance.

It sees the panic. And it knows the secret stash was never the problem — the isolation was.

The light is not hiding from you in this mundane moment. It is right here, in the middle of your routine, waiting for you to stop running.

Drawing from

1 John 1:7, Gospel of Thomas 3

Verses

1 John 1:7

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