the shame of needing help to use the toilet

Where Love Kneels to Hold You

The afternoon sun is high, and the world expects you to be strong, to be independent, to carry your own weight without trembling. But there are moments when the body fails, when the simplest act becomes a mountain of shame, and you feel reduced to a burden in the eyes of others.

You wish you could disappear into the floorboards rather than ask for hands to help you stand or clean you up. Yet the light does not flinch at the mess of being human.

There was a man who had been an invalid for thirty-eight years, lying beside a pool, unable to move on his own, waiting for someone to lower him into the water. Jesus did not turn away from his helplessness.

He did not ask him to fix himself first. He saw the thirty-eight years of dependency and said: 'Get up.

Pick up your mat and walk.' The light is not repelled by your need. It is drawn to it.

The hands that hold you up are not a sign of your failure, but the very place where the divine touches the earth. You are not too broken to be loved.

You are the exact place where love kneels.

Drawing from

John, Matthew

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