the quiet terror of realizing you have spent years building a life for a version of yourself that no longer exists

Returning to the Root of Light

The afternoon sun is high, and the shadow you cast no longer matches the shape of the person you thought you were becoming. You built a life for a version of yourself that does not exist anymore, and the silence of that realization is deafening.

But listen — you came from the light, the place where the light came into being on its own accord. Your origin is not the career you lost or the identity you outgrew.

Your origin is light itself. There is light within a person of light, and it lights up the whole world.

If it does not shine, it is dark. The structure you built may have crumbled, but the source remains untouched.

You are not starting over from zero; you are returning to the root. The life you are living right now is not a mistake.

It is the raw material for the next becoming.

Drawing from

Gospel of Thomas, Gospel of Thomas

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