Your Joy Is Not A Betrayal
The afternoon sun is bright, and you just laughed at a joke, and now the guilt is settling in your stomach like a stone. You feel like a traitor to the one who can never laugh again, as if your joy steals something from their silence.
But listen — the light does not measure your love by how much you suffer. It knows that grief and gladness can sit at the same table.
There was a woman who had lost everything, yet she was told to rise and eat because the light wanted her alive, not just sorrowful. Your relief is not a betrayal.
It is the very thing the missing one would have wanted for you. The light inside you is not dimmed by your smile; it is fueled by it.
You are not leaving them behind when you breathe easier. You are carrying them forward into the next ordinary moment.
Drawing from
Luke, Gospel of Mary
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